Monday, September 07, 2009
Cine Europa 12
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Posted by APRILISMS at 11:00 PM
Friday, August 28, 2009
life's good!
Doncha just love it when you really feel like you're bound for greater things? That although the future is a big blur, there is a big hope of assurance that today sucks and (say it with me) tomorrow is another day!As it is written, these three remain: faith, hope and love.
And we can argue all day about it, but you can't possibly still be walking alive today if it wasn't for these 3 important things which lies deep in all of us.
I have received a promise for better things this week and I felt a surge of happiness for simple things, and I am but excited for good things and the knowledge that they exsist is a gift.
Isn't it that before happy thoughts would make you fly, they make you smile at first?
I think I deserve to be happy this time!
Posted by APRILISMS at 12:01 AM
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Cowardice at its finest
I am just as coward as Bass
Posted by APRILISMS at 11:55 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
Conversation
Isang araw sa isang Japanese resto.
:: I'm begining to doubt my memory. Did it really happened or was I just making up stories?
## I've been wanting to tell this to you but --
:: --Are you afraid I can't handle the truth?
## No! I mean your role in this friendship is to make the other person realize things. Not the other way around!
:: Okay, you're begining to sound like me, trying to make it sound lighter to digest. Won't you just tell it to my face?
## Sige, correct me ah, you're bothered because suddenly he's gone kaput?
:: Woah! That's straightforward!
## Answer?
:: He's not MIA. We still talk and see each other once in a while. But what he started isn't there anymore. I'd just wanna know what was that about not like I care.
## That thing he brought out to the table? That's another thing.
:: I'm confused! What are you even asking me about this guy again?
## Okay, this will be painful I warn you.
:: Bring it on!
## You obviously miss him or it or whatever it is that you once went high school lovers about. But what if its still here, an ongoing thing he didn't intend to stop?
:: Uhuh I'm listening...
## The question is-- Would you even pounce the gazelle?
:: How come I'm the lion?
## I'm thinking more the Hyena.
:: They don't pounce on their prey. Do they?
## Answer?
:: First, I appreciate the metaphor. Good job! Secondly, I didn't hunt for Mr. gazelle so why pounce on him? And lastly, I even think that there is a bigger percentage that this is not even an issue to him. What I think is that, he's stopping because he realized I'm quite right.
## What's the lesser percentage? You are misleading me here missy!
:: The lesser percentage being my praning reasoning which could be true I admit-- did he felt stupid for taking that direction when I-- the bitch one-- was all about walls and mixed signals and complicated stuff and a lot more selfish, selfish reasons.
## Feel lighter?
:: Not a bit. I know that already.
## Back to you being the lion--
:: -- Glad to know I'm promoted.
## But, are you a vegan lion? Because why wouldn't you even pounce on the gazelle. Isn't he just yummy? Hahaha!
:: Come on! I didn't wanna risk okay? I could've if I'd be tempted. I love being proven wrong.
## Wicked, but you’re still misleading me. Why would you miss someone you couldn’t even touch?
:: Because I'm selfish that way.
## Easy excuse.
:: Yes, I wouldn't know how to deal if he didn't stop. In the same way that I miss him that he even stopped. Sometimes I'm an ordinary girl.
## But generally, which feels stronger?
:: I'm not mentally stable to answer. But they both bring me high. Then again I'd like to be proven wrong. I can deal with the other half of my reasons after risking the whole shebang.
## I know that you're not playing naman e.
:: I never played!
## I know. Pero it just seems to be the cycle of your dates. They wind up in one direction-- away from you.
:: Because I’m a big coward carnivore. I just don't want to try every one who comes along. I still hope that love will surprise me.
## Yes on the coward part.
:: Maybe I just want to be pursued. Not in an old fashion way. Just plain convinced.
## And they don't know that.
:: They don't.
## Because we are guys. We don't decode your stupid Da Vinci puzzles.
:: Stupid is a mean word.
## But it’s true.
:: I know hehehe
## Kasi you have a differently annoying front than what your Cinderella-ish dreams of a relationship says.
:: That makes me a clam. Soft insides.
## Tahong.
:: Okay they're family. I'll accept tahong. I'm not a lion anymore?
## Ikaw kaya nagsabing clam ka!
:: I may be both. Lion by day, tahong by night. Ang pangit!
## Saka parang bastos!
:: Ano?
## Wala!
:: Narinig ko naman e pina paulit ko lang.
## Dyan ka na dadale. Diba dapat you're not an ordinary girl? E minsan tinatago mo lang yung pigtails mo e.
:: Pig naman ngayon?
## Tsss
:: Nang gagago lang ng moment mo.
## Ganyan ka ba pag nagseseryoso talk yung lalaki?
:: Minsan.
## Kaya pala.
:: Naiiyak ako pag seryoso e.
## Tears are good. Atleast di yun Da Vinci code.
:: Bakit ba. Basta basta. Di ko na rin alam kung ano gusto ko. Pag may choices nakakalito. Pag wala nakaka baliw.
## Sayo na galing yan.
:: So anong na conclude natin sa usapang to?
## Inaagawan mo ako ng linya. I’m supposed to ask you that.
:: Fine. Pero sasagot ka rin?
## Oo naman.
:: Ayun. Na isa kong paasa gaya ng point mo dati. Pero di nya alam kung bakit kasi di ko sinasabi. Na di naman yun yung gusto kong ipa ramdam. Magulo lang talaga ako. Da Vinci code na nga, sabi mo. This is the point na gusto ko nalang mag fly sa abroad to leave everything in Manila.
## Do you feel for him?
:: Dyahe question number 1 yan ah!
## And your dyahe answer?
:: Its something shaky, still. I believe in magic like a Disney princess to support your Cinderella comparison. If the pixie dusts work, I'm willing to fly. Oo alam kong magkaibang Disney story yun.
## Hahaha chill. Gets ko naman e.
:: Dapat lang.
## So you're willing to let go of your hesitations once the "pixie dust" work? Tama ba ko?
:: Yes. Because I don't wanna jump in this fast tapos saka ko na iisipin kung nasan yung magic. Parang asshole na lalaki ako nun diba?
## Ako naman, I think you should talk to him. Write a letter if you can't say it. Magaling ka naman dun e. Just to get your point across.
:: Yoko kasi magpaka stupid e. Baka di naman nya pinoproblema yun at all.
## You know that he's not the type naman yata e. Konting risk lang. Sya din naman nag risk na ipaalam sayo yung na fe-feel nya diba.
:: Sabagay. I'll gather my guts. But I might just forget about the boy one day. Or, maybe not. I haven’t decided.
## It's not easy that I'm having this conversation, you know.
:: Sorry. I know I’m difficult.
## Not in that sense. You know, I never thought of you and me sitting across the table, me helping you with boy a problem who is not even me.
:: god I never saw that coming. But, I just need your words. You can decode me. I’m sorry for the stress. I don't know who else to ask.
## If he's the one to take care of you now, I'm free to make you realize that.
:: This is the part where I want to crack up a joke kasi its getting serious and I might cry.
## Sige na tama na to, late na mag susundo pa ako.
:: Thanks ah. I hope to meet her one day.
## Retract claws!
:: Its not even out.
## I know. Hehehe. Tara na.
:: Okay.
Posted by APRILISMS at 3:02 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Rundown
The thing about June-OctoberI've been meaning to blog sensibly all these months and truth is -- I've kept unpublished entries, and gazillions of drafts in my file. Call it procrastiblogging.
Life surprised me in the past months, and God has been good showcasing me His blessings. Its actually called happier. Ofcourse there had been tough times but nothing like I wanted to give up.
1. I moved in with my cousins, but its around the area I lived before still. We have a manong guard outside the building... I don't need to worry knocking heavily outside the gate when I go home very late! The flat looks like the apartments in pinoy- with a domestic helper being beaten in singapore-movie > it has the door and a steel railing door. Not that I house-hop for a hobby, but my ninang seriously wants me to oversee another cousin, then we move to the condo> hoping!
2. I've been seeing bestie round 5x already in the past 5 months. In contrast to the past theory that we seem to be living in different timezones, I'm stil in Boni, and she in A.Linao st! I love her beyond words!
3.>>> Is erased due to praning reasons
4. The wrong situation is me being in a very clueless, and not to forget, chasing link with another -- whom after I've well debated with myself for not sucking up with whatever I have for him suddenly goes cryptic on me then waved a white flag which reads: I'm busy.
To date, he's the one who needs rest -- their new word for space -- like I've been breathing his air away from him when we only see each other on weekends and he's allowed to party with the boys!
Sayang I was already considering stats for the big meet and greet to friends. Good thing, you poor thing!
I'm hiring a new movie buddy now. But I won't stand referals. UPDATE: As of this Friday, the unofficial is officially OFF.
5. I've my perfect sundays and happy times with my girls at church. Its so blessed with these souls.
6. My dear sister Dian and I have the best heart to heart talks! When in between the unlikely situation, she spoils me with getaway plans to uncomplicate things. She on the other hand is coming out of her shell, taking down one boy at a time.
7. I've more friends-time the past months. My lovely work friends are all getting my Friday-- the best day in a week for me. Its when The Talk, The Drink, The Fun happens. It especially concludes the (I swear) hard office life for all of us.
8. I am barely half my "things to do before I turn 25" list. My must-do’s/have's might be funny and lame for you so I won't share. I think I'd have to re-write my entries there and consider a boyfriend by 25! Asa! ang arte arte ko sa buhay e!
Posted by APRILISMS at 11:23 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
oh joy oh joy oh joy!
Napapasarap ang pag aaral. I want more.My first LOVE!http://www.dls-csb.edu.ph/space/default.asp?section=2&what=200038MAGAZINE WRITING | |
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Posted by APRILISMS at 2:24 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
I'm 23 for a moment
The birthday discourse(After 5 minutes of thinking how to start this)
Yes, 5 days after my 24th birthday, I only had time to rehash-drama over things-write about having a new age.
I have never been a perfect friend, perfect daughter, perfect Christian this year but I wasn't trying either. Then wonders, if I may say, that life, or God for that matter just love me beyond limit, He's doing the reverse Psychology on me. Not that I am complaining, things are fine -- waay fine thank you.
MORE DRAMA AHEAD: It was a fruitful 23rd year. I constantly surprise myself with the most profound things my mind can speak--others thought I was always like that. I'd like to disappoint them sometime.
The learning curve to adult life is really draining. That's why I was kind of procrastinating about it the first years. Just like when the 23-nes of things start to sink deep in me, goodness, I am already a year older!
Things count faster when your bigger (me talking to me at around 6 or 7 years old). Back at school, you look forward to summer break and then class again. Easy. When you're bigger, after 8 hours of work is the other work day and the next, before you knew it, a year already passed.
What went wrong with time and space that it wasn't the same thing anymore? Came to rant again, sorry.
Bottom line is, April 23 only comes once in a busy year full of bad news politicians, bombings and more of it, nationwide hunger scare, fare hikes, to name a few fillers. And I'm scared to be growing a year older without anything proven to myself. Back when I was young(er) the proof of letting a year pass is an inch or two growth in height!
Now, what we measure is stability, success, and the answer to have we ever felt contented with life considering the age=success ratio, is really a pain to even think of -- whoever created the equation must die.
The learning curve... who says we've reached the maximum potential? Standards of the blind world? What's the next level to this video game, and how to get there without hurting much? Am I ever doing it well in life? I badly need to see my grades :)
After the blah, I am generally happy. I feel more loved than last year. People remembered even if they reminded me of how old I am. I had 4 happy birthday cakes YUM, better than ever!!
My life is far from being perfect right now, I'm wasted by living a day at a time, I have to do something about it. So help me God, talk back to me please.